monkeysdance

Dear Chase,    It still amazes me today how close we came to be in such a small amount of time. Five years may seem to be a long time for others but, for me it was not nearly long enough. When we first met I knew we would be friends, but it took you some getting use to someone like me. The day when, I believe,  you decided to befriend me was so hot. That sprinkler never looked so inviting. We played in it until we were soaked. I even remember the first time we held hands. A storm was about to come and we were on our way back from the tire swing, and we made it to my house before the rain began to fall. You insisted on playing in it. We walk

Why do you torment me so much?  When you hold my hand, do you realize I can't stop smiling?  Everytime your lips touch my neck, it hurts.  Do you like watching me fall apart?  when your teeth sink into my skin my boky akes for more.  Yet everytime we hug i think of how much you don't love me.  Can't you see I'm hurting inside?  If I told you this would you throwe it in my face like you do everything else.  Everyone says they know you love me, but how can that ve when you don't even know.  And what am I suppose to do?

   "I wish you didn't have to go.  Your're my best friend and I need you."  I could no longer fight the tears, they were running down my face uncontolably.  "Why d' you have to go with him? Your old enough to live by yourself."  I held him tightly as he soothingly ran his fingers through my hair.   "I cant live bye myself Sam, I'm not ready for that."  He kissed me lightly on my forhead.  "I'll come back to see you some day."   "You better write to me. . . evry day."  I raised my head and looked into his briliantly green eyes and  For the first time, of all the years I have known him, I see sadness reflecting back at me.   "When I Can.

          The beast always lurked in the shadows.  Of all these years of being his prisoner I have never seen him.  I would only catch a glimpse of him from the corner of my eye.  His shadow was very big, the shadow of a monster.  The beast was very hospitable and I got whatever I wanted whenever.           I once asked the beast "Come beast, come out where I can see you." He replied "No I cant." I tried to look for him but as always he would slip into the shadows of dark corners.  "Why must yo